The One With the OverReaction

Relationships can be difficult, and everyone knows that. Between friends, girl/boy friend etc. However, the hardest one from personal experience is family. Revolving around the hierarchy of the father being ontop, I can say that many of us experience this oppression.

I can say for one thing that relationships are a major factor to cause you to change, not the environment. We realize emotions of envy, greed or even pity for the people around us. These emotions cause us to act in light of their perspectives. Its called conformity.

My relationship with my family is neither good nor bad, it causes me to rely heavily on friends. This is a different trust that cannot be symbolized by a retreat activity of someone falling in the hands of their friends, it can most accurately be described as a foundation. When the a foundation crumbles, the weight is dispersed among others around them. Often times when meeting new people, it is a weight I am afraid they cannot carry.

Society as a whole is the definition of the human condition, the epitome of pop culture and Andy Warhol paintings. Society defines people, and people are defined by relationships. Is the human condition all one big relationship?

I had a great break, however it ended bitterly.

The One with Joy, Friends & Family

We all sit around the brazen fireplace,

enjoying our spoils and honestly I think to myself what am I thankful for?

I don't really have a list, but from I am thankful for life.

it might be a hassle to live sometimes, but we can all retreat

to the love and happiness of our

friends.

However:

the ones that provide for you, the ones that feed

clothe, unconditionally love you

the ones that always see the silver lining

family.

We've all made mistakes in life

whether it be a lie we told

or a test we cheated on.

There is one always to forgive us.

God.

I hope everyone has had a great thanksgiving.

I hope everyone has had a good session of retail therapy

Happy Holidays Everyone.

The One With Reasoning

I wish things were the same way they used to be.

Untouched by the effects of school

Not effected by the troubles of drama

left alone by those who trespass

I hope this isn't the end

I just hope its a new beginning.

After all, everything happens for a reason.

Faith.

The One With Ambition

No matter what troubles you have, whether it be from school, college applications, friends, sports, family, or work. People are like mirrors, and they all deflect. If someone faces hardship, we tend to deflect it on people that care.

I am fortunate enough to have friends that care about me dearly. However I am unfortunate enough to drag along problems. People who care about you, family friends, co-workers or God are all people that represent filters. They take your problem and get rid of all the impurities, leaving you feeling stupid but also with a realization of what you are did wrong. For that, I thank you.

This week is all about random acts of kindness. No, bullying at our school isn't a major problem but the problem lies in unity. Unity of the people, unity of kindness. Our school doesn't expel violent oppression, it lacks people's ability to talk with one another. Don't blame it on us being teenagers, don't blame it on gang activity. Lynbrook isn't another East San Jose Stereotype. Even though I'm not saying people feel 100% comfortable here, people here arn't deflecting their problems into hate crimes. There is only a certain amount of Kindness and Anger in the world, it is up to us, the people, how we want to execute our actions, how we want to compose ourselves and how we want to live our lives.

Kindness is the true Human Condition
Anger, Greed, Selfishness are all side-effects.

The One Where It's Bittersweet

To Live and Let Go:

I Lie. Honestly I Lie all the time. However, one important thing about me is that I never lie to the people I most truly love. But then again, its ironic because the reason most people lie is because they want to protect them. Does this mean I like hurting people...?

Today was bittersweet, confused about whether I wanted to advance onto CCS, I wanted to advance on behalf of the people that actually made a effort this season. However for my own selfish reasons, I wanted to lose.

However, the most wonderful dinner followed. For the first time this year, it felt like last year. With our runs to La Fondue, or Frutti, for the first time this year I appreciated the old worn out junior year.

c'estlavie

The One Where I Dig A Grave

Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
Galatians 5:14

The One Where I Appreciate Literature #1

AS virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move ;
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears ;
Men reckon what it did, and meant ;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
—Whose soul is sense—cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assurèd of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two ;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run ;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

John Donne (1572-1631)

The One Where You Choose

From something as simple as a "yes" or "no" there comes a point in life, where you choose:
which college you plan to apply to
which friends you decide to keep
which item you decide to buy.

Everyone faces these choices, some bigger than others and some of which never make an impact.
However, the choices that people make ripple, affecting those around you, or affecting those you have never met.

This week faced me with the choice of whom i have greater respect for. But when the time came to choose, I chose. The wrong door. Poor choices... i hope don't make me a bad person, however refine me more. Each mistake is meant to build character.

Praise night enlightened me, strengthened my relationship with god, and made me realize the repercussions of my actions. My whole life I feel I've been running on empty, helping or hurting those around me. Honestly sometimes is wish I never had made an impact on people, because then i would be responsible.

Responsibility is a Mistake.