The One With Fresh Pine, A Wood Burning Fire, and A Birthday Hat

My Eyes would slowly peer open, the clock would read 6:00 AM and the sheets would fly off of my bed and my footsteps would thunder and echo down the hallways. Suddenly a shredding of paper would be heard and soon a loud "yes!!!" would reverberate the house.

This year it's different, re-connecting with my faith, this year isn't going to be about me, this year isn't going to be about family, this year is going to be the birth of our savior Jesus Christ. And to celebrate his birthday I'm going to re-acknowledge my blessings and shortfalls, and realize that this is all God's Will.

Everyone that I met in the recent months is a blessing, Wilson, Jason, Timmy, and Debbie you all mean so much to me. And that special someone, you make me realize a new definition for happiness. I'm going to miss you.

Merry Christmas Everyone.

The One with Gambling

In my whole high school career, I've searched for friends that can actually see me for who I am, this year I just got sick of playing a character at school. I got sick of developing my character, I got sick of having my life story written by others. In light of this I found somewhere I truly felt welcomed, I found the place I had been looking for my whole life.

They say that people learn from past mistakes, I hope I am one of those people. Until you are on the firing line, with the barrel of an AK-47 pointed at your face, you gaze into the spiraled edges and you reflect, was it all really worth it? Am I really willing to risk it all. All in dealer... All in?

Situation one, the card turns up, You have a 21, house loses. You have doubled your earnings. You have everything that you care about most, and more. That warm feeling of being cared about, that warm feeling of basking within the compassion of others.

Situation two, the reflex of the finger gently latches on the the "C" shaped trigger and a the bang comes. Painless, quick, some might even say refreshing. You leave everything you have, once again a void in your heart, you are once again lost, in search of what you spent four years looking for. Searching once again for something that cannot be found.

People gamble because everyone is a natural optimist, they believe that they can be that one person that hits the jackpot. Theres a fine line between greed and gambling. I am really wiling to risk it all for more?

The One with Isolation

"please leave your voicemail for ***-****"

"click"

As the horizon of the worst week of our academic career once again encroaches us, we all look at each other with the most volatile and unnatural perspectives. Its disgusting how we are, its sad that in six months, more students have killed themselves at the same intersection than off the golden gate bridge in a year.

These next two weeks, a fluctuation of emotion will show, everything from tears to ecstasy. But I encourage you to be that shoulder to lean on, to be that person of consolidation, let this be your real acts of kindness week. Lets strain the conditions of social disparity and come together as one.

This year during the holiday season, don't be one to define your season with the gifts you receive, as we should all define it as who we spend it with. What we get from each other should only be fraction of the representation of what we mean to each other, not the definition of what you mean to me.

Today be that person to answer that hope, be that person to lift someones spirits. the reason we form memories is because while we reminisce it warms our hearts and fills us once again with dreams and aspirations.

"In the sweetness of friendship, let there be laughter and sharing of pleasures for in the dew of little things the heart finds it’s morning and is refreshed." - Anonymous