The One with RTC

There and Back again, its one of those bittersweet moments. in one hand you have a nice warm shower and a bed that isn't made of linoleum and in the other hand you have the spirit, the purple and the ecstasy of youthful enthusiasm.

This weekend is Davis+Installation+HC= very very fun.

Today "Black-Kenneth Cole" asked me if I could trust him...trust? I'll admit I halfheartedly admitted yes. However it troubled me as i reached to find a definition about what it really was. Was it keeping a secret? Was it sharing confidential information? What was it? Who did I really Trust?

As he spat his pearls in-front of Verde I wondered who I trusted, Did i trust Black Friday? did I trust the swimmer chick? Or even my oldest friend "government phone tapping" I didn't know.

My Mind immediatly thought of a sepia toned video with a CEO saying fall on me I'll catch you, its an exercise. Friendships aren't exercise. Its merely Empathy. Its just LOVEYOU, its just rides, its just (1) missed call. Friendships are simple, its not a game, friendship is trust and dependency.

The One With Church

Revelation, first time to go to church in over 6 years, the same smell, the same atmosphere, but much, much better people.

Besides today being a hectic today (no fracture or broken bones= 2 weeks + 1 week PT) hooray. I honestly feel that church is something to help me set my life back, somewhere academics don't matter, somewhere where we all have one common interest. God. It feels good to take my mental graphite and cross off that one thing I've been longing to do. Thanks.

(Chris, Victor, H20 Bison and "if it was me") today was fun.


But now I'm off to RTC, kinda excited. I have to pack so more to come!

The One Where We're SEN10RS!

Okay, I gotta admit, this blogging thing not really working out. But thank you VICKI JU- my inspiration to start it up again.

I feel that if i start this up again, it'll help me feel better about some of the stuff in my life.

RTC this weekend, i could not be more excited to hobble in the wilderness. That being said its gonna be fun. POLO- out of commission. School- My grades suck.

Honestly so far this year, I think how amazing it really is how people can re-connnect with so much ease. Some people definitely left the loop, but some amazing people are in it again. Honestly summer was way too short. Too short of memories to form, too short to talk a walk on one of those nights. too short to watch the meteor shower.
Honestly i went to into high school with the mind set: yes, we're seniors we'll own this shit up. Yeah, not so much. Its surprising how many of my friends are people i met this year, and how much i value them.

I never knew that in one week, this guy (song) could be my closest friend. After ******** there was a void, a void that i could not fill. Today i didnt hang out with him because of work, first time in a week. And its not okay. Meeting you made me feel wanted, talking to you made me feel inspired, listening to you made me feel compassionate. Yes, we do sound gay but i assure you we arn't. But this is out to you my man, thanks for being there, thanks for not judging, thanks for helping me out.

The One With The End of Paradise...er

Yes! for everyone that is a junior the hellish summer is OVER! That was the time of SATS, De Anza and other academic crap! HC is going a little better, but we should get a move on. So I finished weeds and I'm aggravatingly waiting for more :]. So some updates for everyone that reads, I am officially a threat to the livelyhood of the american streets :] fun fun. I think that I should have done more this summer, the academic stress is building and the tensions are acclimating but its all good.
For all APLAC students, Im screwed for the reading :[ but thats all good.
Work: is okay ginny is leaving but im like the only one that likes her :P
Water Polo- is fucking starting
SAT class- is almost over, but im only scoring like 1800s so i need like intensive care
School- Schd is FUBAR god, i hate it Mrs. Goldstien isnt availble so im neglected by the office staff.
Ok time for hw
ill write more later, sorry for the late post :]

The One WIth the 16th

Driving down the street, you notice balloons tied onto a clad mailbox, you get out of the car and notice that yeah, its gonna be fun. The Party consists of a pinata, a variety of food, and relaxing in the pool.
MTV depicts a 16th as a bitchy whiny little girl, getting a nice new Lexus SC 430, this nice dilemha ends in the result of the girl hysterically screaming and crying, saying that she doesnt want the car, that she doesnt want it right now and that they had to show it off at her party.
What they dont show, is a boy spending his birthday in a classroom, filling out a scantron, except that that scantron is a SAT practice test, later to be signed up for SAT boot camp. Thanks, a great $1200 birthday present. Thanks to everyone that wished me happy birthday and thanks for the cake, to be honest it was the best part of my birthday. Unless we go out ^^ on friday. kk
im gonna go out to dinner right now, and on another note, probably no HC for me this year or even Water Polo, im sorry to everyone. Lets enjoy this moment yeah?

The One WIth the Hot Hot Heat!

So I am currently sitting on my bed, infront of a fan dying from chrlorine inhalation. I have t0 bike to swimming EVERYDAY 8 miles there and back :(. I hope you guys all enjoyed the fourth of july, lizzie, even though we didnt see anything it was still fun :].

The One with the Thoughts

People say that life is like a winding road with the ups and downs with the hairpin turns and the speed bumps. Does the road end at the top of a mountain with breathtaking scenery? Does it end in a closed red velvet casket? or does it end in a blood stained carpet with a note in one hand and a knife in another? The worst thing to happen in life is for you to lose everything to life for, or no, what do we have to live for? Grades? Family? Friends? or just to strive? Is life a competition? or is it a game of chance? What are you supposed to feel at the end of the day? Lets not ask ourselves this, but win the competition, forward ourselves back into the game of life.

Do we live to be rememebered? Is this it? with school, family and friends? Is this seriously what we live for? What do we do when you fail, family is gone and your friends drift apart? Do we end up in the casket? or back down the road? For everyone that thinks im emo now, its ok im not.

Lets just take a walk
take a breath
take sometime
to relax