The One Where I Dig A Grave

Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
Galatians 5:14

The One Where I Appreciate Literature #1

AS virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move ;
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears ;
Men reckon what it did, and meant ;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
—Whose soul is sense—cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assurèd of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two ;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run ;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

John Donne (1572-1631)

The One Where You Choose

From something as simple as a "yes" or "no" there comes a point in life, where you choose:
which college you plan to apply to
which friends you decide to keep
which item you decide to buy.

Everyone faces these choices, some bigger than others and some of which never make an impact.
However, the choices that people make ripple, affecting those around you, or affecting those you have never met.

This week faced me with the choice of whom i have greater respect for. But when the time came to choose, I chose. The wrong door. Poor choices... i hope don't make me a bad person, however refine me more. Each mistake is meant to build character.

Praise night enlightened me, strengthened my relationship with god, and made me realize the repercussions of my actions. My whole life I feel I've been running on empty, helping or hurting those around me. Honestly sometimes is wish I never had made an impact on people, because then i would be responsible.

Responsibility is a Mistake.

The One with AsianParents.

70-75% of Lynbrook High School's Student body is Asian, so when I say this, everyone can Empathize.

My parents are so fucking annoying, they believe that through College Applications, School, Water Polo, and SATS they have to know about my EVERY move. Honestly this is so ridiculous, I hate how this affects me, honestly I just wanna say, FUCK MY PARENTS.... i don't want to admit it but I have.
Concern, being worry-some, fine its normal, but these irrational emotions turn into Controlling, Bitchy and Whiny. You don't need to know where I am, 24/7 because honestly most of the time, I'm FIVE FUCKING FEET AWAY.

I hate being cared about.

The One with Guilt

You ever get that feeling when you feel like you're eating your stomach. When you feel as if you have one finger up as the weight of your conscious bears down onto you. You feel as if your heart, as black as the quad today, is clenching as you realize you might hurt those around you.

Someone you care about so much, someone you know will take care of you, as you defile their car. I'm so sorry I can't be there for you this week. I'm so sorry for anything I do. You're like a brother to me man, and even though I've only known you known you for a month i can't believe all the shit we already went through together.

I really hope you don't read this because
its killing me.

(props to Christine Chen for the Picture)

One-oh forever

The One Where I Know Tomorrow Will Be Better.

Rough Day, Rough Week, Rough Month

For my four years of being a yearbook student, four years of the same old routine. Things change. Finding you guys is probably one of the best things to happen to me, especially during times like this. Its like play a game except you know that you'll automatically win. I thank god everyday for you guys.

Shroom head- Honestly, I love you man. I'll stop making fun of you, sorry its a bad habit. You're one the coolest guys I know right now and I know that after SATs/ college apps it'll be sick. Thanks for caring about me so much.

Staff Sargent- Sometimes life is tough, but honestly if you think of it optimistically, junior year is the worst time if your life and welcome to rock bottom. If you need someone man, I'm here. I remember when we first met I was like this kid is effing awesome.

Water Bison- You're hella cool and car shopping with you is a plus. Even though you get spoiled, you work for it . I hella admire that. You're hella chill and hanging out with you is so much fun. Even though you're hella working right now its a good mindset.

" "- man, I don't even know what to call you anymore. We've gone through so much shit together and honestly I care about you so much. Sorry if I mom you or lecture you its for a good reason. I'm so happy I met you, however the only regret is that I didn't meet you sooner. Besties for fucking life.

You guys make me realize that if we can get through this time together, we can make it through anything. I wish I met all of you guys sooner, you're all an escape in this crappy time of my life.

The One Where I Feel It in My Bones

Tonight made me realize what I've been missing
Something as mediocre as a drive and dinner made me realize,
how perfect we are for each other.

Liking the same songs
made me feel it in my bones
Going to Tapex
made me feel like me again

Honestly, with you its good
even though I complain about peoples history
Every fight is a battle won
Every rude remark is a lesson learned
Every hangout
makes me feel it in my bones.

Thanks for your perseverance
Thanks for your advice
Thanks for making me realize.